"no contact (but i wanted it first)" by Jennifer Allen

no contact (but i wanted it first)

i woke up to another missed call from you

you didn’t leave a voicemail

it was at 3am and i had been sleeping

dreaming of things that were not

you i wondered if you had just been drunk

or if you were crying again and could not sleep

then i got out from under the covers

made my bed

and thought of things that were not you

today was different

i woke up to no missed call

and instead re-read old texts,

the ones you sent that i never responded to

i went for a drive and cried to our song

as i thought up something to text you

when i hit send i thought you’d reply instantly,

but this time you didn’t

i guess that means it’s your turn to sleep

and dream of things that are not me

except now i’m the one awake at 3am

and all i want is for you to call me again

-i’m okay unless you move on

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Jennifer Allen is starting her senior year at Kansas State University this Fall. While she rarely shares her work, she finds satisfaction in expressing complex emotions through poems, short stories, and songs. Singing is one of her favorite artistic outlets and she loves attending concerts. A Southern California native, she feels at home on the beach and most alive when traveling and exploring new cities.